So...a lot has happened in the past month or more. I would rather not put too much on here, for the sake of other's feelings. I think it would be best that way. Even though I have been hurt...pretty badly...I'm not going to post my hurt at the expense of others.
I got an acceptance letter to USC Upstate this week. I have to go to orientation in July. I'm extremely excited. I can't wait to start this next chapter in school. I graduated from Greenville Tech on the Dean's List. And my next goal is to graduate with my BA from Upstate on the Dean's List, as well. I know raising two children and that goal is going to be very hard, but I'm willing to do what it takes.
Charlea is 3 months old. Gosh, time flies...Riley is almost 2 and a half. I just turned 24...where is my life going?! I posted a quote that I made up on facebook today...The hard part is letting go...once you get beyond that, the uphill battle flattens out and the path of life goes on. I firmly believe this is happening for me. I have made some hard decisions in the past few weeks, and honestly, as hard as it was, it was the best for me and my beautiful babies. I would rather hurt a little on the inside to make my children's lives the best possible.
It has been a whole year since Riley's father has seen him. I hurt a little for Riley because of this. But honestly, I can't help but to think that maybe it is for the best whatever that reason may be. It would break my heart if he grew up and was hurt by his father forgetting to come to his baseball games, his kindergarten graduation, his birthdays, etc. Father's Day was hard for me in this respect. But we had a great day with Nana and Potch. My father wanted the grandchildren to call him "Pops" but has grown to love how Riley calls him Potch. It makes us all smile to hear him say it.
I'm enjoying summer even though it is extremely hot. We have been hanging out with Angie and Jordan and Uncle Eddie a lot at the pool. I can not believe how well Riley is swimming this year. The more you let him go, the more he does. It really is amazing to watch. His con artistry is also very very good. I wish I knew some of his tricks when I was his age ;).
well, enough for today. It's been awhile since the last post, and I have to go through and delete some of them, so it can help me not rehash the past. It's honestly for the best and I'm very proud of myself.
~kate
Monday, June 27, 2011
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
the weekend up until now...
I still can't believe last weekend came and passed so quickly. I never knew that time could go so fast in your life after you start having children. Now, everything just seems like a blur...
Saturday...I went shopping for Zoe's gift and then went to her first birthday party. It was so sweet to see how much bigger she has gotten since the last time I saw her which was a few months ago. It was a nice party. I left Riley at home with Bobby and Charlea and I were the ones to see Miss Zoe turn one officially. It was hard to socialize with anyone because it was an indoor/outdoor party and because of the wind, I couldn't take Charlea outside. I got home from the party, and Bobby cooked me steak for dinner that night! :) mm mm good!
Sunday...We got Charlea's first portraits done at Olan Mills. Bobby's mom and step dad bought us a package there, but we also spent another 100 dollars on extra pictures. The one package the woman tried to sell me was originally 976 dollars...but she was going to give it to me for 476...how generous of her...hah...i still would not have spent that much money on pictures that Charlea would not cooperate for. I got some pretty ones, but I'm still disappointed that the woman would not listen to me that I did not want to be in the picture of her feet only because of my chipped nail polish...but now I have a picture of her beautiful feet with mommy's fingernails looking like utter crap. OH WELL...you live and learn. Then we went to Bobby's mom's house and had a cook out with her and Roger's family to meet the baby. It was so much fun. I met a lot of people and had a blast with his mom and step dad afterwards. I never knew just sitting in the sun and relaxing with my children and family could be so much fun! I definitely can't wait to have more memories like that.
At the moment...both children are silent. Charlea is in her swing looking around at her new world, and Riley is laying in the floor playing with cars. Life could not get much greater at the moment.
My transcripts are hopefully finally sent off to Upstate so I can start there in the fall. I'm SO excited about this next step in school. I still can't believe that I graduated and made the Dean's List. I'm very proud of myself and how much I have accomplished from when I first started school. In a year and a half I brought my GPA up from a 1.2 to a 3.75...I would have had over a 4.0 when I graduated, but because I screwed my GPA up in the past, I have been working my butt off to get it where it is now. And I'm happy with where I am at! :)
I'm going to be purchasing my new living room sectional soon. I'm so happy. Although the couch I have has lasted MANY years through my family...it's time to kick it to the curb. I am tired of falling through the couch cushions when I sit on it. The sectional matches many other pieces of furniture in my living room (book shelves, ottoman, etc.) so it will fit in nicely! :) I can't wait to get it.
I am nervous today. I have an appointment with my attorney to hopefully get the rest of my divorce on the go. I have been waiting on this final court date since day 1. I'm not sure how today is going to go...we had to put the final hearing on hold until Charlea got here...so I'm thinking that today might not go as planned just because of the whole situation. But we shall see, and I'll keep my fingers crossed.
Saturday...I went shopping for Zoe's gift and then went to her first birthday party. It was so sweet to see how much bigger she has gotten since the last time I saw her which was a few months ago. It was a nice party. I left Riley at home with Bobby and Charlea and I were the ones to see Miss Zoe turn one officially. It was hard to socialize with anyone because it was an indoor/outdoor party and because of the wind, I couldn't take Charlea outside. I got home from the party, and Bobby cooked me steak for dinner that night! :) mm mm good!
Sunday...We got Charlea's first portraits done at Olan Mills. Bobby's mom and step dad bought us a package there, but we also spent another 100 dollars on extra pictures. The one package the woman tried to sell me was originally 976 dollars...but she was going to give it to me for 476...how generous of her...hah...i still would not have spent that much money on pictures that Charlea would not cooperate for. I got some pretty ones, but I'm still disappointed that the woman would not listen to me that I did not want to be in the picture of her feet only because of my chipped nail polish...but now I have a picture of her beautiful feet with mommy's fingernails looking like utter crap. OH WELL...you live and learn. Then we went to Bobby's mom's house and had a cook out with her and Roger's family to meet the baby. It was so much fun. I met a lot of people and had a blast with his mom and step dad afterwards. I never knew just sitting in the sun and relaxing with my children and family could be so much fun! I definitely can't wait to have more memories like that.
At the moment...both children are silent. Charlea is in her swing looking around at her new world, and Riley is laying in the floor playing with cars. Life could not get much greater at the moment.
My transcripts are hopefully finally sent off to Upstate so I can start there in the fall. I'm SO excited about this next step in school. I still can't believe that I graduated and made the Dean's List. I'm very proud of myself and how much I have accomplished from when I first started school. In a year and a half I brought my GPA up from a 1.2 to a 3.75...I would have had over a 4.0 when I graduated, but because I screwed my GPA up in the past, I have been working my butt off to get it where it is now. And I'm happy with where I am at! :)
I'm going to be purchasing my new living room sectional soon. I'm so happy. Although the couch I have has lasted MANY years through my family...it's time to kick it to the curb. I am tired of falling through the couch cushions when I sit on it. The sectional matches many other pieces of furniture in my living room (book shelves, ottoman, etc.) so it will fit in nicely! :) I can't wait to get it.
I am nervous today. I have an appointment with my attorney to hopefully get the rest of my divorce on the go. I have been waiting on this final court date since day 1. I'm not sure how today is going to go...we had to put the final hearing on hold until Charlea got here...so I'm thinking that today might not go as planned just because of the whole situation. But we shall see, and I'll keep my fingers crossed.
Monday, March 28, 2011
Decisions...
I have a lot of decisions I have to make in the next few weeks. The major one is when I am going back to work. I know that they need me because of short staffed reasons, but there was 8 months in advance of notice of when I was going to be out lol...so then again, I don't need to rush myself. If I rush myself, that could lead into taking the healing process a lot longer than it should. Do I want the money? Yeah...who doesn't...but I also have to look out for my health.
The second decision is what I am going to do about a bigger car...we just can't fit everything of two kids into my car including : 2 adults, 2 children, 2 carseats, 2 diaper bags, 2 strollers...yadda yadda yadda...I think my decision on that is...I will get a new car as soon as I start working again, so that I can make sure we aren't struggling to make a car payment while I'm out of work. Then that leaves me with what kind of car I'm going to get...pretty sure it is going to be a ford...lol for the sake of the boyfriend! :)
The last decision I have to make is about living room furniture...There is a sectional at big lots that I like a lot and it's pretty cheap, but the color is not my favorite. Then there is the Ashley one at Factory Furniture that we like, but it's about 400 more than the one at big lots but a beautiful color and will fit our room better. So that leaves me with cheaper vs. more expensive. But with having two young kids, I kind of don't want to get anything really nice because of the simple fact that they will make messes...oh this decision is the most painstaking for me to make lol and to think it's really one of those that is not a big deal.
I have other things on my mind that I need to do, but those will come with time and a lot of praying and having a lot of faith! So, for right now, I need to keep my chin up about the issues that really worry me, and let them work themselves out on their own.
For now, my to do list is pretty short....
1. call my lawyer to proceed with the rest of the divorce
2. finish laundry so bobby will have work clothes and riley will have night night clothes
3. pull out something for dinner
4. steam clean rest of living room floor?!?! i think so...
So, I'm thinking that I need to go to Greenville Tech tomorrow and have my transcripts sent to Upstate so I can attend in the fall. I tried it once before, but they sent me a check back to my house for the amount I paid to have my transcripts sent...BOO...so now I'm going to try again. Even though it really is a pain in my butt!
I also have to decide what I'm going to do about school in the summer. I want to take anatomy in the summer at Greenville Tech, but I have to see if they offer it in the summer. Since the summer is fast tracked classes, I'm also scared to take such a hard class in the short time alloted.. I guess I will talk to my dad tomorrow and see what he says. I want to take some basic "medical" classes, because that will help open up my horizons for my career in the future. If I just limit myself to certain classes, I can only do certain jobs, but if I minor in something medical along with my psychology degree, that will give me a better job in the future.
It really is amazing at how things change in your life. Bobby's mom really got me thinking into this. In the past 3 years, I have changed my life for the better not only for me, but for my children as well. I am closing a chapter in my life that was really negative, and the only thing that is keeping me from doing so right now is a court date. I'm working on fixing myself and getting all of the negativity out of my life, since my life is close to perfect now. There is no need to be negative when I have two amazing children and an amazing boyfriend who is ALWAYS there for me and will always love me. All I know is that 3 years ago, I would have never thought that I would be where I am right now: 2 children, the love of my life, an associates degree achieved, making the dean's list, getting accepted into a 4 year university, and having 2 amazing families watch me go through it all!!
Enough said for now...time to pick up and play house and maybe read some of my book! :)
The second decision is what I am going to do about a bigger car...we just can't fit everything of two kids into my car including : 2 adults, 2 children, 2 carseats, 2 diaper bags, 2 strollers...yadda yadda yadda...I think my decision on that is...I will get a new car as soon as I start working again, so that I can make sure we aren't struggling to make a car payment while I'm out of work. Then that leaves me with what kind of car I'm going to get...pretty sure it is going to be a ford...lol for the sake of the boyfriend! :)
The last decision I have to make is about living room furniture...There is a sectional at big lots that I like a lot and it's pretty cheap, but the color is not my favorite. Then there is the Ashley one at Factory Furniture that we like, but it's about 400 more than the one at big lots but a beautiful color and will fit our room better. So that leaves me with cheaper vs. more expensive. But with having two young kids, I kind of don't want to get anything really nice because of the simple fact that they will make messes...oh this decision is the most painstaking for me to make lol and to think it's really one of those that is not a big deal.
I have other things on my mind that I need to do, but those will come with time and a lot of praying and having a lot of faith! So, for right now, I need to keep my chin up about the issues that really worry me, and let them work themselves out on their own.
For now, my to do list is pretty short....
1. call my lawyer to proceed with the rest of the divorce
2. finish laundry so bobby will have work clothes and riley will have night night clothes
3. pull out something for dinner
4. steam clean rest of living room floor?!?! i think so...
So, I'm thinking that I need to go to Greenville Tech tomorrow and have my transcripts sent to Upstate so I can attend in the fall. I tried it once before, but they sent me a check back to my house for the amount I paid to have my transcripts sent...BOO...so now I'm going to try again. Even though it really is a pain in my butt!
I also have to decide what I'm going to do about school in the summer. I want to take anatomy in the summer at Greenville Tech, but I have to see if they offer it in the summer. Since the summer is fast tracked classes, I'm also scared to take such a hard class in the short time alloted.. I guess I will talk to my dad tomorrow and see what he says. I want to take some basic "medical" classes, because that will help open up my horizons for my career in the future. If I just limit myself to certain classes, I can only do certain jobs, but if I minor in something medical along with my psychology degree, that will give me a better job in the future.
It really is amazing at how things change in your life. Bobby's mom really got me thinking into this. In the past 3 years, I have changed my life for the better not only for me, but for my children as well. I am closing a chapter in my life that was really negative, and the only thing that is keeping me from doing so right now is a court date. I'm working on fixing myself and getting all of the negativity out of my life, since my life is close to perfect now. There is no need to be negative when I have two amazing children and an amazing boyfriend who is ALWAYS there for me and will always love me. All I know is that 3 years ago, I would have never thought that I would be where I am right now: 2 children, the love of my life, an associates degree achieved, making the dean's list, getting accepted into a 4 year university, and having 2 amazing families watch me go through it all!!
Enough said for now...time to pick up and play house and maybe read some of my book! :)
Thursday, March 17, 2011
One Week Old
Sheesh...where do I even begin? One week ago today, Charlotte Elizabeth Cook was born into our lives. She is so beautiful. I woke up like normal to make Bobby's lunch and I had these horrible pains, but they were not so so bad to the point where I thought it was time to go to the hospital. By 7 that morning, I knew something was not right. I tried taking a bath in case they were the braxton hicks...but that only helped for about 5 minutes. I called Bobby and we went to the hospital.
By the time I got to the room I had to pee in a cup and it sounded like a flood came out of me. My water did not break but because I was having a contraction, all the pee came at once. That was horrible. They kept me on the monitor for an hour and kept checking my cervix and I went from 3 to 5 cm so they decided I was in labor and admitted me.
They gave me an i.v. and then I got the epidural. I still can't believe how fast everything happened. I was thinking she would come by early evening, but a little over an hour after they broke my water they said it was time. The pushing part was a breeze and after about 4 to 5 minutes of pushing, she was here. She was 7lb 1 oz and 19 in long. After 40 weeks and 4 days my princess was finally here. It's ironic, because Riley was born after 40 weeks and 4 days as well.
Throughout the whole thing, Bobby was at my side. He helped me cut the umbilical cord which meant a lot to the both of us. He also helped clean her up and get her ready to be in my arms for the first time. He was amazing through out the whole thing. The whole car ride to the hospital he kept telling me to squeeze his hand when it hurt. He was such a great support partner and I am so glad that he could be there with me. I could not have chosen a better man to be mine. Every time a bad contraction hit, he would tell me that he was so sorry that I was in so much pain and that he wished he could take the pain away from me. He stayed by my side through everything, even when we had some unexpected "company" at the hospital. He really is the best man for me, Riley, and Charlea. I really do love him dearly.
I am so thankful that she is healthy, and did not have any problems like Riley did when he was born. No child deserves to suffer. I had a better pregnancy this time around for the most part, too. Granted, it started off rough, but when I met Bobby things made a 180 change for the best. I even have a stronger support system now. I know that during any time of the day or night, I can call on his family or mine and they will be there for me. Bobby's parents have taken me and Riley (and now Charlea) in and have given us a place in their heart that I will never forget. His mom and step dad have been there for me since they met me, and I could not be more thankful. When they found out I was going in labor, they were there as fast as they could be. His cousin, Josh, who I hung out with only once, was there for me and came to the hospital on his lunch break before I had her, and also visited us in our room. After I came home, his mom and step dad have come to the house and helped me out with the children, house work, and making sure I have enough rest. All I have to say is those who have been there for me have the biggest places in my heart. My family has also been a big help in everything lately. My mom makes sure that I have enough rest and she comes when she is not working in case I need a nap. I really could not be more thankful for the help that we are getting. I was so glad that my sister got to come up and be there for me, as well. She helped my mom a lot with Riley, and also got to love on her new niece too.
Today was the first day that I have been left alone with both children by myself. It has not been too bad, only because she is sleeping lots, and Riley plays on his own. I have been able to clean up the house a tiny bit, spend time with Charlea, and spend time with Riley. The hardest part, I would have to say, is when Riley has one of his fits because he did not get his way. He ended up going down early for his nap because he was throwing a tantrum. But that's the way the cookie crumbles. I'm not going to allow him to do it and get away with it.
Nights are a little rough at times only because I'm dying for some solid rest. I know that's impossible with a newborn, but I am also pretty lucky with Charlea. Most nights she goes 5 hours between feedings. The kicker is that she poops non-stop. Every single diaper she has changed, has poop in it. I'll feed her, lay her down and lay myself down, and then five minutes later, I'm up because she just pooped again. I feel so bad because her little bottom is getting so sore because of how often she poops. I change it as soon as I hear it or notice it, but it's hard to always catch it right as soon as it happens.
Time to do more laundry and hopefully lay down for a little bit!!
By the time I got to the room I had to pee in a cup and it sounded like a flood came out of me. My water did not break but because I was having a contraction, all the pee came at once. That was horrible. They kept me on the monitor for an hour and kept checking my cervix and I went from 3 to 5 cm so they decided I was in labor and admitted me.
They gave me an i.v. and then I got the epidural. I still can't believe how fast everything happened. I was thinking she would come by early evening, but a little over an hour after they broke my water they said it was time. The pushing part was a breeze and after about 4 to 5 minutes of pushing, she was here. She was 7lb 1 oz and 19 in long. After 40 weeks and 4 days my princess was finally here. It's ironic, because Riley was born after 40 weeks and 4 days as well.
Throughout the whole thing, Bobby was at my side. He helped me cut the umbilical cord which meant a lot to the both of us. He also helped clean her up and get her ready to be in my arms for the first time. He was amazing through out the whole thing. The whole car ride to the hospital he kept telling me to squeeze his hand when it hurt. He was such a great support partner and I am so glad that he could be there with me. I could not have chosen a better man to be mine. Every time a bad contraction hit, he would tell me that he was so sorry that I was in so much pain and that he wished he could take the pain away from me. He stayed by my side through everything, even when we had some unexpected "company" at the hospital. He really is the best man for me, Riley, and Charlea. I really do love him dearly.
I am so thankful that she is healthy, and did not have any problems like Riley did when he was born. No child deserves to suffer. I had a better pregnancy this time around for the most part, too. Granted, it started off rough, but when I met Bobby things made a 180 change for the best. I even have a stronger support system now. I know that during any time of the day or night, I can call on his family or mine and they will be there for me. Bobby's parents have taken me and Riley (and now Charlea) in and have given us a place in their heart that I will never forget. His mom and step dad have been there for me since they met me, and I could not be more thankful. When they found out I was going in labor, they were there as fast as they could be. His cousin, Josh, who I hung out with only once, was there for me and came to the hospital on his lunch break before I had her, and also visited us in our room. After I came home, his mom and step dad have come to the house and helped me out with the children, house work, and making sure I have enough rest. All I have to say is those who have been there for me have the biggest places in my heart. My family has also been a big help in everything lately. My mom makes sure that I have enough rest and she comes when she is not working in case I need a nap. I really could not be more thankful for the help that we are getting. I was so glad that my sister got to come up and be there for me, as well. She helped my mom a lot with Riley, and also got to love on her new niece too.
Today was the first day that I have been left alone with both children by myself. It has not been too bad, only because she is sleeping lots, and Riley plays on his own. I have been able to clean up the house a tiny bit, spend time with Charlea, and spend time with Riley. The hardest part, I would have to say, is when Riley has one of his fits because he did not get his way. He ended up going down early for his nap because he was throwing a tantrum. But that's the way the cookie crumbles. I'm not going to allow him to do it and get away with it.
Nights are a little rough at times only because I'm dying for some solid rest. I know that's impossible with a newborn, but I am also pretty lucky with Charlea. Most nights she goes 5 hours between feedings. The kicker is that she poops non-stop. Every single diaper she has changed, has poop in it. I'll feed her, lay her down and lay myself down, and then five minutes later, I'm up because she just pooped again. I feel so bad because her little bottom is getting so sore because of how often she poops. I change it as soon as I hear it or notice it, but it's hard to always catch it right as soon as it happens.
Time to do more laundry and hopefully lay down for a little bit!!
Friday, March 4, 2011
March 4...2 days left until the due date
Well, there is still a lot of today left, but Bobby and I were hoping that she would come today. It is his grandmother's birthday today, as well, and it would totally be a great birthday present for his grandmother...but if she does not come, that's okay too. We were just hoping...I went and saw his grandmother yesterday, and she was so excited about if the baby were to come today. She also felt my belly where Charlotte was sitting and the joy on her face just melted my heart. His grandparents really are great people, and I'm so thankful everyday to have them in my children's lives.
I only have 2 days left, and this past week I have not been as miserable as the past 2 months...which is awesome. My feet has swelled worse, but other than that, I have been able to have a little more energy and get more things done. I guess it's also the fact that it's only a few days left until my due date, so my spirits are higher than the past two months where I thought the misery would never end.
Bobby has been working hard on Charlea's nursery. It is SO beautiful. We could not have decorated any better. I can't wait to post pictures up for everyone to see. It is like a fairy tale in there. All he has to do is finish putting up the new bars in her closet, and we will finish putting everything away. Since it is Friday, maybe we can finish the closet together tonight. We shall see since Bobby has worked his butt off lately.
I go to the doctor in a few hours for my supposed last prenatal appointment before the baby comes. I wonder who all is going to be left in the class from 2 weeks ago and who has had their babies. I wonder what they are going to tell me since I have not had her. They will probably not set my induction up just in case, but another appointment and then discuss induction after that. All I know is that I am ready, so I am hoping that we can set up the induction or maybe I will go into labor before the doctors appointment... ha ha...yeah right! I also have to talk to the doctor about stopping work since it is so close. Granted, I hate missing out on the money, but I also have to watch out for not only my health, but the health of the baby. We shall see.
Riley has been a great big brother already. He knows what is his and what is sissy's toys. He will point or pick something up and say "this is sissy's" and then put it back. It really is so cute. He also kisses my belly and tells sissy that he loves her. I really can not wait to introduce them when she comes. She bought him some train pieces to go to his train set for her arrival. I hear it helps with the introduction to give the older sibling something from the younger sibling so Riley feels like he is not left out for the baby. I will miss my little man so much while I am in the hospital, but I know he will come see us lots.
Time to get up and get ready for the doctor, make Riley lunch, put Riley down, and clean a little before I have to leave. *crossing my fingers for today*
I only have 2 days left, and this past week I have not been as miserable as the past 2 months...which is awesome. My feet has swelled worse, but other than that, I have been able to have a little more energy and get more things done. I guess it's also the fact that it's only a few days left until my due date, so my spirits are higher than the past two months where I thought the misery would never end.
Bobby has been working hard on Charlea's nursery. It is SO beautiful. We could not have decorated any better. I can't wait to post pictures up for everyone to see. It is like a fairy tale in there. All he has to do is finish putting up the new bars in her closet, and we will finish putting everything away. Since it is Friday, maybe we can finish the closet together tonight. We shall see since Bobby has worked his butt off lately.
I go to the doctor in a few hours for my supposed last prenatal appointment before the baby comes. I wonder who all is going to be left in the class from 2 weeks ago and who has had their babies. I wonder what they are going to tell me since I have not had her. They will probably not set my induction up just in case, but another appointment and then discuss induction after that. All I know is that I am ready, so I am hoping that we can set up the induction or maybe I will go into labor before the doctors appointment... ha ha...yeah right! I also have to talk to the doctor about stopping work since it is so close. Granted, I hate missing out on the money, but I also have to watch out for not only my health, but the health of the baby. We shall see.
Riley has been a great big brother already. He knows what is his and what is sissy's toys. He will point or pick something up and say "this is sissy's" and then put it back. It really is so cute. He also kisses my belly and tells sissy that he loves her. I really can not wait to introduce them when she comes. She bought him some train pieces to go to his train set for her arrival. I hear it helps with the introduction to give the older sibling something from the younger sibling so Riley feels like he is not left out for the baby. I will miss my little man so much while I am in the hospital, but I know he will come see us lots.
Time to get up and get ready for the doctor, make Riley lunch, put Riley down, and clean a little before I have to leave. *crossing my fingers for today*
Sunday, February 27, 2011
almost 6 days!!
This weekend was pretty good. I had a little bit of a melt down yesterday, but it ended up being a really really good day.
Bobby and I went to Rooms-To-Go and to Ashley Furniture. I will say that overall I liked Rooms-To-Go better, and I think we found a set that we REALLY like to fit in the living room. Bobby and I also went to Salsaritas for dinner and Cold Stone Creamery for desert. We kind of treated Riley out as one of the last few days that he is an only child. We also looked at a few dealerships for a new car because my car just does not work well with multiple car seats and to make it work, we have to sit like we are clowns in a car made out of a box. lol. We had to go put his dog back in the garage at his mom's house, because she got out, but she was easy to find thankfully. That ended yesterday pretty much.
Today we went to lunch with my mom at WaHo. It was good for all of us to sit and chat. We also showed her the floor plan that Bobby built on my laptop of the house. Riley acted out, but as soon as we were on a little day trip to Easley, he fell asleep and was in a little better mood after that. It really was a pretty day and we walked all around the Ford dealership. I also found a car that I really like.
As of tomorrow, I only have 6 more days until my due date. I have to go to Walmart and do some shopping, but other than that, it should be a pretty easy day depending on how I'm feeling and how Riley wants to act. lol He has had some pretty terrible moments here lately...It's frustrating, but the pediatrician says it's really normal...sometimes it just does not seem normal...I don't know, though...it's too early to tell if he inherited some bipolar tendencies from them...I really just do not want to think about it, actually...
We ended today with a pizza and we were going to go to the park, but it was really crowded. Also, Madie was put in the hospital tonight to have surgery. I wish I could have gone to be there for his family, but what she has is really contagious, and I can't put myself in that position being 6 days away from my due date...it sucks though, because I really wanted to go. I really hope everything is okay...I know Bobby was worried for her, and I am too...
Since Bobby left to go to the hospital, I have been cleaning and getting the house ready for baby girl...it feels like I'll never be done, though...i guess that's how it is when you start having kids...the cleaning NEVER ends...I miss Bobby lots when he is not here...I guess that's love :) He has been trying to keep me busy these last few days of my pregnancy to make the time pass and take my mind off of the pain I've been in. He's really great!
Today for the first time my feet swelled...it was AWFUL. I never had that problem with Riley and when i got up and my feet felt like balloons I nearly freaked out. After some walking around a furniture store and the Ford dealerships and kmart and and and lol...they got better, thankfully...
Bobby and I went to Rooms-To-Go and to Ashley Furniture. I will say that overall I liked Rooms-To-Go better, and I think we found a set that we REALLY like to fit in the living room. Bobby and I also went to Salsaritas for dinner and Cold Stone Creamery for desert. We kind of treated Riley out as one of the last few days that he is an only child. We also looked at a few dealerships for a new car because my car just does not work well with multiple car seats and to make it work, we have to sit like we are clowns in a car made out of a box. lol. We had to go put his dog back in the garage at his mom's house, because she got out, but she was easy to find thankfully. That ended yesterday pretty much.
Today we went to lunch with my mom at WaHo. It was good for all of us to sit and chat. We also showed her the floor plan that Bobby built on my laptop of the house. Riley acted out, but as soon as we were on a little day trip to Easley, he fell asleep and was in a little better mood after that. It really was a pretty day and we walked all around the Ford dealership. I also found a car that I really like.
As of tomorrow, I only have 6 more days until my due date. I have to go to Walmart and do some shopping, but other than that, it should be a pretty easy day depending on how I'm feeling and how Riley wants to act. lol He has had some pretty terrible moments here lately...It's frustrating, but the pediatrician says it's really normal...sometimes it just does not seem normal...I don't know, though...it's too early to tell if he inherited some bipolar tendencies from them...I really just do not want to think about it, actually...
We ended today with a pizza and we were going to go to the park, but it was really crowded. Also, Madie was put in the hospital tonight to have surgery. I wish I could have gone to be there for his family, but what she has is really contagious, and I can't put myself in that position being 6 days away from my due date...it sucks though, because I really wanted to go. I really hope everything is okay...I know Bobby was worried for her, and I am too...
Since Bobby left to go to the hospital, I have been cleaning and getting the house ready for baby girl...it feels like I'll never be done, though...i guess that's how it is when you start having kids...the cleaning NEVER ends...I miss Bobby lots when he is not here...I guess that's love :) He has been trying to keep me busy these last few days of my pregnancy to make the time pass and take my mind off of the pain I've been in. He's really great!
Today for the first time my feet swelled...it was AWFUL. I never had that problem with Riley and when i got up and my feet felt like balloons I nearly freaked out. After some walking around a furniture store and the Ford dealerships and kmart and and and lol...they got better, thankfully...
Friday, February 25, 2011
late night with contractions
I really thought it was going to happen last night...I was having contractions every few minutes, but my water never broke, so here I am sitting at home with only NINE DAYS LEFT...
I still have a lot of cleaning up I have to do downstairs...I'm trying to get ready for the move back down to my bedroom. We have been sleeping upstairs to see if that helps with the power bill, but now that it's getting warm again, it does not matter. I will steam clean the rest of the living room today (hopefully) and finish cleaning up some of the kitchen cabinets and counters...I'm okay with saying I'm "nesting," but to be honest with you, part of it is the baby but the other part of me realized that it's been awhile since I've deep cleaned.
Riley has been such a sweet boy lately, and he pee'd in the potty the other night without us prompting him or trying to show him how. It was so cute how excited we both got. He is talking up a storm now like you would not believe. It's pretty amazing how, overnight, he has picked up more and more phrases. I really think he is going to do well with his sister coming. He loves to point to me and say mommy and then point to my belly and say sissy. He will give my belly (sissy) a kiss before he even thinks about giving me one. It's sweet, really.
Only 9 more days until my due date...I'm super excited and I'm ready for the break to sit at home with my children. I sound like a broken record saying that, but I'm honestly ready. I would be lying, though, if I said I was not nervous about the baby coming. I'm super excited, but at the same time, scared because I always think about what could go wrong. My anxiety issues are to blame for that, but oh well. I will take it one stride at a time, and I'm very thankful I have bobby who will help me through every step of the process.
Riley had his 2 year check up yesterday with his new pediatrician who I am excited to go back to after all of the insurance issues the past 2 years...Hopefully, we will be able to stick with this doctor for good. He got 4 shots, and even though he cried, he handled it VERY well. he has welts on his legs today where the shots were, but it does not seem to be bothering him, thankfully. I got a cream for his eczema on his neck, so hopefully that will be cleared up soon.
Things really are looking up, though. I can't wait for the baby to come to get the rest of my divorce process finalized. It would have been finalized in January, but being pregnant, there is a law that the divorce can not be finalized until after the baby is born. It was very frustrating to find that out, but soon enough that chapter will be over and I can focus on my future with bobby, with my children, and with school.
I got my diploma the other day from tech...I'M SO EXCITED. No one in my family has really said anything but a "congrats" on me graduating. Because of the baby, I could not walk the stage, but that does not mean that I don't want to celebrate it some how. It was almost as if they did not believe that I did it. I kept saying that after my last class in december that I wanted to go out to dinner to celebrate, and they said that was a good idea, but it has not happened. I feel like my sister and brother got more excitement when they graduated...but whatever...I'm tired of mentioning anything even though it hurt my feelings. I have my diploma to show for it, so now no one can say "she can't do it." I'm really excited about starting my next step to my career in August.
waiting for bobby to call on his lunch break...can't wait to talk to him.
I still have a lot of cleaning up I have to do downstairs...I'm trying to get ready for the move back down to my bedroom. We have been sleeping upstairs to see if that helps with the power bill, but now that it's getting warm again, it does not matter. I will steam clean the rest of the living room today (hopefully) and finish cleaning up some of the kitchen cabinets and counters...I'm okay with saying I'm "nesting," but to be honest with you, part of it is the baby but the other part of me realized that it's been awhile since I've deep cleaned.
Riley has been such a sweet boy lately, and he pee'd in the potty the other night without us prompting him or trying to show him how. It was so cute how excited we both got. He is talking up a storm now like you would not believe. It's pretty amazing how, overnight, he has picked up more and more phrases. I really think he is going to do well with his sister coming. He loves to point to me and say mommy and then point to my belly and say sissy. He will give my belly (sissy) a kiss before he even thinks about giving me one. It's sweet, really.
Only 9 more days until my due date...I'm super excited and I'm ready for the break to sit at home with my children. I sound like a broken record saying that, but I'm honestly ready. I would be lying, though, if I said I was not nervous about the baby coming. I'm super excited, but at the same time, scared because I always think about what could go wrong. My anxiety issues are to blame for that, but oh well. I will take it one stride at a time, and I'm very thankful I have bobby who will help me through every step of the process.
Riley had his 2 year check up yesterday with his new pediatrician who I am excited to go back to after all of the insurance issues the past 2 years...Hopefully, we will be able to stick with this doctor for good. He got 4 shots, and even though he cried, he handled it VERY well. he has welts on his legs today where the shots were, but it does not seem to be bothering him, thankfully. I got a cream for his eczema on his neck, so hopefully that will be cleared up soon.
Things really are looking up, though. I can't wait for the baby to come to get the rest of my divorce process finalized. It would have been finalized in January, but being pregnant, there is a law that the divorce can not be finalized until after the baby is born. It was very frustrating to find that out, but soon enough that chapter will be over and I can focus on my future with bobby, with my children, and with school.
I got my diploma the other day from tech...I'M SO EXCITED. No one in my family has really said anything but a "congrats" on me graduating. Because of the baby, I could not walk the stage, but that does not mean that I don't want to celebrate it some how. It was almost as if they did not believe that I did it. I kept saying that after my last class in december that I wanted to go out to dinner to celebrate, and they said that was a good idea, but it has not happened. I feel like my sister and brother got more excitement when they graduated...but whatever...I'm tired of mentioning anything even though it hurt my feelings. I have my diploma to show for it, so now no one can say "she can't do it." I'm really excited about starting my next step to my career in August.
waiting for bobby to call on his lunch break...can't wait to talk to him.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
15 days and stupid people
only 15 more days...give or take...went to my "doctor's appointment"...if you want to call it that, and bobby and I ended up leaving early. I was so hot in the place. I was just sitting there and then the next thing I know I got really flushed and broke out into a sweat...From there the contractions started and didn't want to stop.
Bobby and I grabbed something quick and I headed to work, which was bogus because some people know that I'm what 2 weeks away from having a baby and I have doctor's appointments EVERY WEEK...but because she wants her favorite group, she won't work with the other girls at all. My appointments have always been on Friday and I said that from day one so it would be easier to work around the schedule. So instead of working with 4 extra kids until I got there, she had the office staff call me and ask where I was. DUMMIE!! First of all, quit showing favorites. Second of all, regardless of you having stuff going on in your life, we all do, so suck it up and deal with it. I have a 400 power bill I have to pay and they are cutting my hours to give to some other coach. Have I ever once complained about that? NOPE. The least you can do is talk to me abut it before you do it. Honestly, what is the point of me going into work on that day for 2 hours. That's a waste of my gas. Not to mention that I was having contractions like crazy and when everyone was telling me to sit down, I didn't. I SUCKED IT UP. But then I get crapped on there...Yeah...I'm a little tired of it, honestly.
Enough of that, I had to get it off of my chest, though. So tired of people walking all over me. I wish I could have this baby so I could go back to school and get that done faster so I can start my career. An associates degree is not ideal for a mother of two.
Today is Riley's birthday. I had a rough night last night with hurting and having to pee all night long. The contractions/ cramps were pretty rough last night, too. Maybe she can wait until right after Riley's party and then she can start making an appearance into this world. Riley really needs this party as his special time before sissy comes, so I'm hoping she does not start before 7 tonight. lol.
Other than that, Riley is still having a hard time going to sleep at night. It was almost midnight before he went to sleep last night and it ended up being the middle of the floor where he fell asleep. But, we are working on it, so hopefully something will come about soon.
Time to get up and going for the day and have some fun with my little man while I clean. JOY...maybe I'll take him for a walk in a little bit.
Bobby and I grabbed something quick and I headed to work, which was bogus because some people know that I'm what 2 weeks away from having a baby and I have doctor's appointments EVERY WEEK...but because she wants her favorite group, she won't work with the other girls at all. My appointments have always been on Friday and I said that from day one so it would be easier to work around the schedule. So instead of working with 4 extra kids until I got there, she had the office staff call me and ask where I was. DUMMIE!! First of all, quit showing favorites. Second of all, regardless of you having stuff going on in your life, we all do, so suck it up and deal with it. I have a 400 power bill I have to pay and they are cutting my hours to give to some other coach. Have I ever once complained about that? NOPE. The least you can do is talk to me abut it before you do it. Honestly, what is the point of me going into work on that day for 2 hours. That's a waste of my gas. Not to mention that I was having contractions like crazy and when everyone was telling me to sit down, I didn't. I SUCKED IT UP. But then I get crapped on there...Yeah...I'm a little tired of it, honestly.
Enough of that, I had to get it off of my chest, though. So tired of people walking all over me. I wish I could have this baby so I could go back to school and get that done faster so I can start my career. An associates degree is not ideal for a mother of two.
Today is Riley's birthday. I had a rough night last night with hurting and having to pee all night long. The contractions/ cramps were pretty rough last night, too. Maybe she can wait until right after Riley's party and then she can start making an appearance into this world. Riley really needs this party as his special time before sissy comes, so I'm hoping she does not start before 7 tonight. lol.
Other than that, Riley is still having a hard time going to sleep at night. It was almost midnight before he went to sleep last night and it ended up being the middle of the floor where he fell asleep. But, we are working on it, so hopefully something will come about soon.
Time to get up and going for the day and have some fun with my little man while I clean. JOY...maybe I'll take him for a walk in a little bit.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
It's been 2 whole years...
Thank you Mickey Mouse Club House for getting "Hot dog hot dog hot diggity dog" stuck in my head. That's what I'll be singing a lot of from here on out.
I still can't believe that Riley is two years old today. Well, technically at 5:39 this evening! I thank God everyday for blessing me with him. He is such a great child for all that he has been through his first two years with all of the surgeries, hospital stays, surgery appointments, and daddy issues. If I could take all of the bad things away from him, I would. But also everything that he has gone through has just made him a really strong kid. For the most part, each of these things have worked themselves out, but we still have to worry about having future surgeries. I couldn't ask for a better person to enter Riley's life and be the father that someone else won't be to him. He is totally better off and I couldn't thank Bobby more for being so good to him. I love the relationship they have together.
Saturday is Riley's party at the gym and even though we only have 3 kids attending, there will be a lot of adults there to show how much they love him. I really need to get him to have more play dates with kids his age in the future...well after miss Charlotte gets here of course lol. We are having pizza and cake and lots of gymnastics play time in the gym. I really can't wait even though I can't do much except sit and watch. I can't wait until after I have the baby and I can do more physical things with him.
I'm hoping the baby comes after Saturday. After Riley's party she is fair game to come lol...I just did not want her to come today or Saturday so Riley could have his special time before she arrives. But hey, she will come when she comes. I know I keep saying I want her here now, but it is just getting my hopes up really. I had a friend who had her baby already and another who is past due, and I have been jealous because I just want my little munchkin to get here. But she is not here yet for a reason, so I don't need to rush it. I have 18 more days until my due date, and I couldn't be happier that the time is slowly but surely ticking down down down. I know I'll miss feeling her move in my belly. I'll miss Riley being able to point and kiss my belly. I'll miss Bobby rubbing and kissing my belly. I'll miss all of my kids playing with my belly at work. I know I'll miss all of these cute things, but when she gets here there will be so many better milestones with her. I can't wait, but for now I have to lol.
I think it's time to take a nap...Riley, the birthday boy, has been up since 6 this morning for some odd reason and I'm typing with one eye open at a time. He just broke his back molars and so he is still a little congested with a cough. He makes me laugh though. He is putting his farm animals in the farm house and telling them "night nightch" to make them go "night nightch"...so so cute
I still can't believe that Riley is two years old today. Well, technically at 5:39 this evening! I thank God everyday for blessing me with him. He is such a great child for all that he has been through his first two years with all of the surgeries, hospital stays, surgery appointments, and daddy issues. If I could take all of the bad things away from him, I would. But also everything that he has gone through has just made him a really strong kid. For the most part, each of these things have worked themselves out, but we still have to worry about having future surgeries. I couldn't ask for a better person to enter Riley's life and be the father that someone else won't be to him. He is totally better off and I couldn't thank Bobby more for being so good to him. I love the relationship they have together.
Saturday is Riley's party at the gym and even though we only have 3 kids attending, there will be a lot of adults there to show how much they love him. I really need to get him to have more play dates with kids his age in the future...well after miss Charlotte gets here of course lol. We are having pizza and cake and lots of gymnastics play time in the gym. I really can't wait even though I can't do much except sit and watch. I can't wait until after I have the baby and I can do more physical things with him.
I'm hoping the baby comes after Saturday. After Riley's party she is fair game to come lol...I just did not want her to come today or Saturday so Riley could have his special time before she arrives. But hey, she will come when she comes. I know I keep saying I want her here now, but it is just getting my hopes up really. I had a friend who had her baby already and another who is past due, and I have been jealous because I just want my little munchkin to get here. But she is not here yet for a reason, so I don't need to rush it. I have 18 more days until my due date, and I couldn't be happier that the time is slowly but surely ticking down down down. I know I'll miss feeling her move in my belly. I'll miss Riley being able to point and kiss my belly. I'll miss Bobby rubbing and kissing my belly. I'll miss all of my kids playing with my belly at work. I know I'll miss all of these cute things, but when she gets here there will be so many better milestones with her. I can't wait, but for now I have to lol.
I think it's time to take a nap...Riley, the birthday boy, has been up since 6 this morning for some odd reason and I'm typing with one eye open at a time. He just broke his back molars and so he is still a little congested with a cough. He makes me laugh though. He is putting his farm animals in the farm house and telling them "night nightch" to make them go "night nightch"...so so cute
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
2 weeks 5 days
Valentine's Day was really good, even though I had to spend it at work. My girls gave me a lot of chocolates (which I ate) and they were really good yesterday...well, all except one. I had to write an incident report because I just have a feeling that something will get said and I'm going to have my butt covered beforehand.
Bobby was on his way home yesterday telling me how much he didn't like V Day, and I totally understand why. He has a GREAT point...why should they have just one day out of the year designated for flowers and chocolates and cards and such when those things should be given just because on any day? I like his logic in this, and it's true. I think I would be so much more happier to get flowers just because he was thinking about me, rather than because it is a holiday. But regardless, he surprised me with roses, chocolates, and an amazing card. It really touched my heart and put tears in my eyes. He is the first Valentine to do something that sweet for me. Riley also gave me this HUGE card telling me how much he loved me in HUGE letters lol. That was sweet, as well. So needless to say, yesterday was a good day.
I'm a bit exhausted today, and I wish this little munchkin would come soon soon soon. They said that right now I should have bursts of energy along with the times of exhaustion....not so much. I feel like I'm always exhausted. I took a walk yesterday, which was great. That actually helped my overall morale for the day. This post seems rather long, but I have no little boy here to try and mess up my typing. He is with his Nanna at there weekly gymnastics class. I sure hope he does not act out for her like he has been lately. When she came in the door and said are you ready to go jump he turned around looked at me and waved in my face and yelled buh bye really loud. I can see who he loves lol.
As for me, I'm going to nap before my lovey calls me on his lunch break. I can't wait to have this evening off tonight to spend with him!!!!
Bobby was on his way home yesterday telling me how much he didn't like V Day, and I totally understand why. He has a GREAT point...why should they have just one day out of the year designated for flowers and chocolates and cards and such when those things should be given just because on any day? I like his logic in this, and it's true. I think I would be so much more happier to get flowers just because he was thinking about me, rather than because it is a holiday. But regardless, he surprised me with roses, chocolates, and an amazing card. It really touched my heart and put tears in my eyes. He is the first Valentine to do something that sweet for me. Riley also gave me this HUGE card telling me how much he loved me in HUGE letters lol. That was sweet, as well. So needless to say, yesterday was a good day.
I'm a bit exhausted today, and I wish this little munchkin would come soon soon soon. They said that right now I should have bursts of energy along with the times of exhaustion....not so much. I feel like I'm always exhausted. I took a walk yesterday, which was great. That actually helped my overall morale for the day. This post seems rather long, but I have no little boy here to try and mess up my typing. He is with his Nanna at there weekly gymnastics class. I sure hope he does not act out for her like he has been lately. When she came in the door and said are you ready to go jump he turned around looked at me and waved in my face and yelled buh bye really loud. I can see who he loves lol.
As for me, I'm going to nap before my lovey calls me on his lunch break. I can't wait to have this evening off tonight to spend with him!!!!
Sunday, February 13, 2011
3 weeks away
I made Riley his first bubble bath this morning and he is so happy just playing in the tub. I never have a problem getting him in the bath, but getting him out is a different story. The water can be ice cold, but that does not bother him. lol
Yesterday was very productive for me and Bobby. We both went our separate ways during the afternoon and tackled little projects that we wanted to get done. One thing I know is...I will NEVER go grocery shopping with Riley and being pregnant EVER again. If someone else goes with me, that's a different story. My buggy was SUPER FULL and I had a hard time pushing it. I was hoping it would help me go into labor pushing all of those groceries...WRONG...not to mention Riley started acting up half way through lol.
We went downtown last night for Bobby's mom's birthday and played indoor mini golf. It was fun, and interesting watching Riley learn how to play golf. He was pretty good, but 3/4 of the way through is when he started getting tired of it...but that is to be expected honestly with an almost 2 year old. Regardless, I had a lot of fun with his family.
I think Bobby and I decided that we are going to look for a new car for me. We went looking around the lots last night on our way home, and we saw lots of good prospects, but now it's time to look around and see what kind of deals we can find. This seems like a longer process then when my me and my father were house shopping for me. Who knows, though. It's just impossible to fit the second car seat into my mazda...i will never get another mazda in my life...I know getting rid of my car will make me feel like a big load is off of my shoulders because it was not the car I wanted, but I hd no choice basically in my decision a few years back. I am thankful that part of my life is almost over!!!! :)
Well Riley won't let me write anymore...he keeps climbing in and out of the tub.
Yesterday was very productive for me and Bobby. We both went our separate ways during the afternoon and tackled little projects that we wanted to get done. One thing I know is...I will NEVER go grocery shopping with Riley and being pregnant EVER again. If someone else goes with me, that's a different story. My buggy was SUPER FULL and I had a hard time pushing it. I was hoping it would help me go into labor pushing all of those groceries...WRONG...not to mention Riley started acting up half way through lol.
We went downtown last night for Bobby's mom's birthday and played indoor mini golf. It was fun, and interesting watching Riley learn how to play golf. He was pretty good, but 3/4 of the way through is when he started getting tired of it...but that is to be expected honestly with an almost 2 year old. Regardless, I had a lot of fun with his family.
I think Bobby and I decided that we are going to look for a new car for me. We went looking around the lots last night on our way home, and we saw lots of good prospects, but now it's time to look around and see what kind of deals we can find. This seems like a longer process then when my me and my father were house shopping for me. Who knows, though. It's just impossible to fit the second car seat into my mazda...i will never get another mazda in my life...I know getting rid of my car will make me feel like a big load is off of my shoulders because it was not the car I wanted, but I hd no choice basically in my decision a few years back. I am thankful that part of my life is almost over!!!! :)
Well Riley won't let me write anymore...he keeps climbing in and out of the tub.
Friday, February 11, 2011
23 days...5 days...8 days...
I have multiple things to count down to in my future days.
1.) Tonight after work - going to the movies with Bobby for an early Valentines Day together. Bobby's mom and step dad are coming to spend the evening with Riley pants.
2.) Tomorrow - Bobby's mom's birthday...I know he wants to spend time with her, and I know Riley and I do too. She has been so great through out our whole relationship and has been good to me through the last of this pregnancy, too.
3.) Monday - Valentine's Day. Well I'm not looking forward to this day...I have to work...BOO...but I'm really stressing about money right now since my power bill was outrageous this past month. But at least we figured out the problem and that's fixed, so hopefully next month it won't be like that.
4.) Tuesday - dinner with Bobby to finish up our Valentine's together. I'm not sure where we are going, somewhere nice but on the cheaper end. Either way, I can't wait. We have been planning to spend time together every Tuesday the past month, but something ALWAYS comes up whether it is an emergency doctor's visit or some other doctor's appointment at night because something happens to Riley or I. LOL...we are a mess.
5.) Wednesday - 5 days away from my little man turning 2. I can't believe it! It's sad, but at the same time pretty cool. He is starting to get to the point where he has his own tastes of likes and dislikes and I love to watch him learn and grow.
6.) 8 days away from Riley's birthday party at the gym. Not many people will be there, but the ones who will be there is what matters. He just does not have any friends his own age. He does gymnastics with kids, but that's once a week and it's hard to make friends to people he sees only once a week for 45 minutes. But that's okay. I know Jordan is coming, and he adores Jordan, so he has someone he can play with.
7.) Last but not least...23 days until my due date. I keep hoping that she will come a.s.a.p. but to be honest with you, I just want her healthy. I have 3 weeks-ish left and I know it's at a safe point where she can come, but if she is not ready, then I"ll wait. I just can't wait to have her in my arms, and be able to cuddle her. I'm super excited. I'm to the point where i feel miserable all of the time, that's why I have been on count down for the past 9 months it seems. lol. While there have been no major complications, this pregnancy has been harder than my last.
It's an early morning for Riley...He went to bed late and woke up early. I ended up putting a rocking chair back in his room, since going to bed is catastrophic to him at the moment. At least I can read a book and rock while he gets ready to fall asleep. I have two huge books, that have hundreds of stories, so I can read them to him or I can just read to myself. Either way, I'm hoping this will help with him going to sleep at night. I just hope it doesn't make the separation anxiety worse because when I have the baby I won't be able to always do it in the future. But then again, I was thinking that this could be part of mommy/Riley time at night where I put the baby down first, then I put him down and spend some time with him so he doesn't feel left out. Time will tell what I need to do.
1.) Tonight after work - going to the movies with Bobby for an early Valentines Day together. Bobby's mom and step dad are coming to spend the evening with Riley pants.
2.) Tomorrow - Bobby's mom's birthday...I know he wants to spend time with her, and I know Riley and I do too. She has been so great through out our whole relationship and has been good to me through the last of this pregnancy, too.
3.) Monday - Valentine's Day. Well I'm not looking forward to this day...I have to work...BOO...but I'm really stressing about money right now since my power bill was outrageous this past month. But at least we figured out the problem and that's fixed, so hopefully next month it won't be like that.
4.) Tuesday - dinner with Bobby to finish up our Valentine's together. I'm not sure where we are going, somewhere nice but on the cheaper end. Either way, I can't wait. We have been planning to spend time together every Tuesday the past month, but something ALWAYS comes up whether it is an emergency doctor's visit or some other doctor's appointment at night because something happens to Riley or I. LOL...we are a mess.
5.) Wednesday - 5 days away from my little man turning 2. I can't believe it! It's sad, but at the same time pretty cool. He is starting to get to the point where he has his own tastes of likes and dislikes and I love to watch him learn and grow.
6.) 8 days away from Riley's birthday party at the gym. Not many people will be there, but the ones who will be there is what matters. He just does not have any friends his own age. He does gymnastics with kids, but that's once a week and it's hard to make friends to people he sees only once a week for 45 minutes. But that's okay. I know Jordan is coming, and he adores Jordan, so he has someone he can play with.
7.) Last but not least...23 days until my due date. I keep hoping that she will come a.s.a.p. but to be honest with you, I just want her healthy. I have 3 weeks-ish left and I know it's at a safe point where she can come, but if she is not ready, then I"ll wait. I just can't wait to have her in my arms, and be able to cuddle her. I'm super excited. I'm to the point where i feel miserable all of the time, that's why I have been on count down for the past 9 months it seems. lol. While there have been no major complications, this pregnancy has been harder than my last.
It's an early morning for Riley...He went to bed late and woke up early. I ended up putting a rocking chair back in his room, since going to bed is catastrophic to him at the moment. At least I can read a book and rock while he gets ready to fall asleep. I have two huge books, that have hundreds of stories, so I can read them to him or I can just read to myself. Either way, I'm hoping this will help with him going to sleep at night. I just hope it doesn't make the separation anxiety worse because when I have the baby I won't be able to always do it in the future. But then again, I was thinking that this could be part of mommy/Riley time at night where I put the baby down first, then I put him down and spend some time with him so he doesn't feel left out. Time will tell what I need to do.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
24 days...
This week seems to have gone by super fast when I think about it...but my count down to my due date is not going by fast at all. How does that work itself out?
I'm sitting in the bonus room watching some tv waiting on Riley to go to sleep. It's not as easy as I thought it would be. He had NO problem taking a nap when he was in a crib...now that he can roam around and play instead of sleep, he throws a fit. how does that make any sense? Now that he has a big boy bed, I took him out of the high chair and he sits at his little table and chairs to eat. He loves this aspect of being a big boy. He will get used to the bed, I hope. Either that, or he is going through separation anxiety bad when it comes to going to bed. I swear he thinks that I'm going to leave him and never come back...I could never do that ever ever! Oh well, time will tell. He definitely knows that something is up, though, because he has been acting out more and not listening as much.
On a more positive note, he is super smart. He knows how to count from 1 to 10 with a little bit of help, and we are working on his ABC's at the moment. Hopefully when I have the baby, and I'll be at home more, we will master it. :) Last night when we had a hard time getting him to sleep, and then when he got quiet and I went to check on him, he was sleeping in his tent with a book over his face. It was HILARIOUS! I will definitely have to post pictures soon soon! :) Today, he let me nap on the futon for a little bit after we woke up, which was wild because he usually throws cars at me if I even shut one eye. lol...When I woke up about 20 minutes later, there were cars EVERYWHERE. For a boy who has at least 50 to 100 cars, you can only imagine what the floor looked like.
I have to go to work in a few hours. Thursdays are now pretty easy, and I have a good group of girls, so it should go by super quick. Friday's I work the least amount of hours, and it is the longest day. I swear the kids think that because it's the weekend they can do what they want...wrong lol...Fridays are my hardest days...but I will have to admit that when I stop working I'll miss even the hard days. I've become quite attached to the girls I teach, even when they decide not to listen. It's a typical kid thing.
I think tomorrow we are going to do a little something for pre-Valentines Day. I've never really had someone to spend this holiday with, so I'm really looking forward to it. I think we are going to watch a movie and grab a quick bite to eat, and then Tuesday (since I work Monday) we are going to go out and have dinner together. Sometime in between then we are going to do something with Bobby's mom for her birthday, move furniture from my house to my parents and vice versa, and have some time together?! maybe?! lol...
I also have to get Riley's birthday stuff ready. I still need to get him another toy or something. His party is not this weekend but next weekend, and I couldn't be more bedhind. Last year, I had everything planned out a whole month before. But knowing that I'm about to have a baby and the way money is going, I'm a little more slack this year. I still can't believe that he is going to be 2! Time has flown!
Time to clean up and get ready for work!
I'm sitting in the bonus room watching some tv waiting on Riley to go to sleep. It's not as easy as I thought it would be. He had NO problem taking a nap when he was in a crib...now that he can roam around and play instead of sleep, he throws a fit. how does that make any sense? Now that he has a big boy bed, I took him out of the high chair and he sits at his little table and chairs to eat. He loves this aspect of being a big boy. He will get used to the bed, I hope. Either that, or he is going through separation anxiety bad when it comes to going to bed. I swear he thinks that I'm going to leave him and never come back...I could never do that ever ever! Oh well, time will tell. He definitely knows that something is up, though, because he has been acting out more and not listening as much.
On a more positive note, he is super smart. He knows how to count from 1 to 10 with a little bit of help, and we are working on his ABC's at the moment. Hopefully when I have the baby, and I'll be at home more, we will master it. :) Last night when we had a hard time getting him to sleep, and then when he got quiet and I went to check on him, he was sleeping in his tent with a book over his face. It was HILARIOUS! I will definitely have to post pictures soon soon! :) Today, he let me nap on the futon for a little bit after we woke up, which was wild because he usually throws cars at me if I even shut one eye. lol...When I woke up about 20 minutes later, there were cars EVERYWHERE. For a boy who has at least 50 to 100 cars, you can only imagine what the floor looked like.
I have to go to work in a few hours. Thursdays are now pretty easy, and I have a good group of girls, so it should go by super quick. Friday's I work the least amount of hours, and it is the longest day. I swear the kids think that because it's the weekend they can do what they want...wrong lol...Fridays are my hardest days...but I will have to admit that when I stop working I'll miss even the hard days. I've become quite attached to the girls I teach, even when they decide not to listen. It's a typical kid thing.
I think tomorrow we are going to do a little something for pre-Valentines Day. I've never really had someone to spend this holiday with, so I'm really looking forward to it. I think we are going to watch a movie and grab a quick bite to eat, and then Tuesday (since I work Monday) we are going to go out and have dinner together. Sometime in between then we are going to do something with Bobby's mom for her birthday, move furniture from my house to my parents and vice versa, and have some time together?! maybe?! lol...
I also have to get Riley's birthday stuff ready. I still need to get him another toy or something. His party is not this weekend but next weekend, and I couldn't be more bedhind. Last year, I had everything planned out a whole month before. But knowing that I'm about to have a baby and the way money is going, I'm a little more slack this year. I still can't believe that he is going to be 2! Time has flown!
Time to clean up and get ready for work!
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Frustrating
I know for a fact that Riley knows things are about to change in our household...meaning the new baby. We recently had to put him in a toddler bed because he greeted me one morning at my bedside telling me about his poopie diaper. LOVELY. That, in itself, is a big change for him on top of the new baby coming. He is having a time adjusting to his new bed. I find that if I put him to bed, he just cries and wants me to come "save" him. If Bobby puts him to bed, he does not fuss or cry and goes straight to bed. I love putting him to bed and it breaks my heart when I have to sit in the next room each day and night while he is being put in bed, but I want it to be less traumatic for him to go to sleep.
I'm getting very anxious for the new baby, not only because of Riley adjusting, but because of the not knowing what is going to happen...I'm just going to have to roll with it for right now. It definitely helps having Bobby supporting me, and he asks me quite often what my plans are, but I don't even know. He doesn't push the issue, but he lets me know that it not only is an issue to me, but it is an issue to him because it bothers me. It really helps having someone who will be there for me. I think he knows when I'm thinking about this issue because I'll get very quiet and he knows my worried "look." I brush it off when he asks me from time to time, but even when I say "nothing" he knows exactly what I'm thinking about. I really do adore our relationship, and there are many obstacles that we will face together, but we are both so willing to do it with and for each other. This is the first relationship that has ever worked out for the both of us, and I know that with him in my life, everything will work out and be great for us.
Now that Riley is calmed down in his bed, I'm going to finish cleaning the kitchen and get ready for work and wait for Bobby to call on his break. :)
I'm getting very anxious for the new baby, not only because of Riley adjusting, but because of the not knowing what is going to happen...I'm just going to have to roll with it for right now. It definitely helps having Bobby supporting me, and he asks me quite often what my plans are, but I don't even know. He doesn't push the issue, but he lets me know that it not only is an issue to me, but it is an issue to him because it bothers me. It really helps having someone who will be there for me. I think he knows when I'm thinking about this issue because I'll get very quiet and he knows my worried "look." I brush it off when he asks me from time to time, but even when I say "nothing" he knows exactly what I'm thinking about. I really do adore our relationship, and there are many obstacles that we will face together, but we are both so willing to do it with and for each other. This is the first relationship that has ever worked out for the both of us, and I know that with him in my life, everything will work out and be great for us.
Now that Riley is calmed down in his bed, I'm going to finish cleaning the kitchen and get ready for work and wait for Bobby to call on his break. :)
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Sick and Exhausted...Literally
My day off...and I think it's going to be just one of those days. I'm dressed and waiting for the phone call from my mom to meet her and Riley for lunch. They had their every Tuesday morning play date at gymnastics. He is probably going to be in a bad mood and probably was in time out more than once because he woke up at 6 this morning and would not go back to sleep...so I'm exhausted as well. I got to sleep around 2 this morning and woke up at 2*30 sick as a dog. They do say that morning sickness can come and go throughout the entire pregnancy...gag...
So after being sick and shivering for an hour straight I got to sleep around 4 and had to wake up at 5*40 to get Bobby's lunch ready and get him up and ready. My poor boyfriend has been sick the past two days, as well. I feel awful that I can't take care of him and myself. It is just so hard to move and do anything right now.
I had the worst bloody nose of my life yesterday. It was actually my first bloody nose ever. I was shaking because there was so much blood and I could not get it to stop. I swear I brushed my teeth 5 times to get the nasty taste of copper out of my mouth. Oh well...if that was the most exciting part of my morning then I'm doing okay. No contractions yet, and 26 more days to go...I think this baby has decided to hang in there all the way just like Riley did. I'm so miserable and am wishing her to come as soon as possible.
I want her to be healthy, of course, so I'm impatiently being patient, but I can't finalize my divorce until she is here (so says some law dated back to the late 1700s)...it's retarded if you ask me, but that's the law. Huff...I can't wait for that portion of my life to be over. It just seems like until it is over I can't get the bad memories of how I was treated out of this chapter of my life. It is not fair to me nor Bobby that sometimes I get too sensitive because of the past. I know that once the divorce is final, it will help me.
I'm pretty tired of my fingers feeling like sausages...i have skinny fingers and having my fingers hurt when I bend them is annoying...I guess at this point I am only bitching about the aches and pains...but soon enough a princess will enter mine and bobby's life and I CAN'T WAIT. We have 98% of what we need for her, and if you ask me, that's not too bad considering I did not have half of what I do this time when I had Riley. I'm very thankful for what I have and who I have in my life.
All I know is I love my little growing family more than I could ever imagine loving anything else...Bobby, Riley, and Charlea are the greatest!
So after being sick and shivering for an hour straight I got to sleep around 4 and had to wake up at 5*40 to get Bobby's lunch ready and get him up and ready. My poor boyfriend has been sick the past two days, as well. I feel awful that I can't take care of him and myself. It is just so hard to move and do anything right now.
I had the worst bloody nose of my life yesterday. It was actually my first bloody nose ever. I was shaking because there was so much blood and I could not get it to stop. I swear I brushed my teeth 5 times to get the nasty taste of copper out of my mouth. Oh well...if that was the most exciting part of my morning then I'm doing okay. No contractions yet, and 26 more days to go...I think this baby has decided to hang in there all the way just like Riley did. I'm so miserable and am wishing her to come as soon as possible.
I want her to be healthy, of course, so I'm impatiently being patient, but I can't finalize my divorce until she is here (so says some law dated back to the late 1700s)...it's retarded if you ask me, but that's the law. Huff...I can't wait for that portion of my life to be over. It just seems like until it is over I can't get the bad memories of how I was treated out of this chapter of my life. It is not fair to me nor Bobby that sometimes I get too sensitive because of the past. I know that once the divorce is final, it will help me.
I'm pretty tired of my fingers feeling like sausages...i have skinny fingers and having my fingers hurt when I bend them is annoying...I guess at this point I am only bitching about the aches and pains...but soon enough a princess will enter mine and bobby's life and I CAN'T WAIT. We have 98% of what we need for her, and if you ask me, that's not too bad considering I did not have half of what I do this time when I had Riley. I'm very thankful for what I have and who I have in my life.
All I know is I love my little growing family more than I could ever imagine loving anything else...Bobby, Riley, and Charlea are the greatest!
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Staying On My Toes
Well Riley does a good job of keeping me on my toes...at all times...there is NEVER a dull moment with him! :) I had to call poison control today because he got ahold of the tums I had for my heart burn that baby Charlotte is giving me. He only ate four at the most, but I was still worried that it could really hurt his stomach. The lady on the phone was super great and the tums won't do much but give him extra calcium...so no diary products today. Phew!!
I went to the doctor yesterday and they had to run MORE blood work...joy joy...i swear each time I get blood work done they get more and more rough on me. Oh well, soon enough I'll be crying like a baby in the hospital when they go to give me an iv...OH JOY. They told me that I was 50% thinned out...so maybe maybe a baby in a few weeks??? I don't know...
I am super excited for the little princess to get here, and the more excited I get, the more scared I get, as well. It's hard to fathom having two children when I'm so used to having one. I know I will have a lot of support and help when the baby comes, but there will be times when I'm by myself and the adjustment of taking care of two is a little scary. I know that I can do it, I'm not saying that I can't by any means, it's just a little overwhelming when you think about it. I've had to take care of two before when Riley was an infant, but that child was older than Riley and could tell me what he needed. But either way, I'm super happy that my family is about to grow a little more! It will be a challenge, but I know that I can handle it...especially knowing that I have Bobby, my family, and his family's support. They are all really great to me, and I couldn't imagine my life with out any of them.
I really am looking forward to taking a little time off of work. I will miss my kids dearly, but it's getting a lot harder for me to move around and I get exhausted so easy right now. The hours are rough because Bobby gets off so much earlier than I do, and by the time I get home in the evenings we are both starving and the thought of waiting another hour to eat while the food cooks is frustrating to a pregnant woman. :) I'm really looking forward to him coming home from work and Riley running to the door when he walks in and me having dinner almost ready for him. He does so much for us that I think he deserves that.
Time for a nap...so so so sleepy...if Riley will allow it! :)
I went to the doctor yesterday and they had to run MORE blood work...joy joy...i swear each time I get blood work done they get more and more rough on me. Oh well, soon enough I'll be crying like a baby in the hospital when they go to give me an iv...OH JOY. They told me that I was 50% thinned out...so maybe maybe a baby in a few weeks??? I don't know...
I am super excited for the little princess to get here, and the more excited I get, the more scared I get, as well. It's hard to fathom having two children when I'm so used to having one. I know I will have a lot of support and help when the baby comes, but there will be times when I'm by myself and the adjustment of taking care of two is a little scary. I know that I can do it, I'm not saying that I can't by any means, it's just a little overwhelming when you think about it. I've had to take care of two before when Riley was an infant, but that child was older than Riley and could tell me what he needed. But either way, I'm super happy that my family is about to grow a little more! It will be a challenge, but I know that I can handle it...especially knowing that I have Bobby, my family, and his family's support. They are all really great to me, and I couldn't imagine my life with out any of them.
I really am looking forward to taking a little time off of work. I will miss my kids dearly, but it's getting a lot harder for me to move around and I get exhausted so easy right now. The hours are rough because Bobby gets off so much earlier than I do, and by the time I get home in the evenings we are both starving and the thought of waiting another hour to eat while the food cooks is frustrating to a pregnant woman. :) I'm really looking forward to him coming home from work and Riley running to the door when he walks in and me having dinner almost ready for him. He does so much for us that I think he deserves that.
Time for a nap...so so so sleepy...if Riley will allow it! :)
Friday, February 4, 2011
The Count Down
I don't remember counting down the days until Riley's due date...until like the week before. This pregnancy seems like I have been counting down from the start. I thought it would be another cake walk like it was with Riley. WRONG. From all of the nausea, the stomach flu, allergies, cramps, back aches, feet aches, and early labor issues, this has not been easy. I'm just thankful that I have had the support of not only my family, but Bobby, as well. If it was not for him, I don't think I would have lived through that last semester at Greenville Tech and this pregnancy would have gone by even slower than it already seems. I guess I'm just anxious now for her arrival.
I still can't believe that in 2 short weeks my little buddy will be 2 years old. Time really does fly when you have kids. But I would not change any minute that I have been blessed with him. Not even the bad. He's been through a lot since birth and each and every milestone and step has brought us closer and closer together. I adore him. We have started "potty training." Knowing that when baby gets here he will regress, we are not pushing him. Sitting him on the pot every day for a few minutes is about the farthest we push him. If he goes, great. If he does not, great. When he is ready, he is ready. So far, he has poopied in the potty two times and pee peed in the potty twice. :) I still think he is off to a great start.
I'm so glad that today starts the weekend with Bobby. We both get a few days break from work to spend with each other. I'm really looking forward to that. I can catch up on cleaning and finishing getting Charlotte's room ready. I have a feeling that she might come soon...but then again I'm not sure.
31 days and counting!
I still can't believe that in 2 short weeks my little buddy will be 2 years old. Time really does fly when you have kids. But I would not change any minute that I have been blessed with him. Not even the bad. He's been through a lot since birth and each and every milestone and step has brought us closer and closer together. I adore him. We have started "potty training." Knowing that when baby gets here he will regress, we are not pushing him. Sitting him on the pot every day for a few minutes is about the farthest we push him. If he goes, great. If he does not, great. When he is ready, he is ready. So far, he has poopied in the potty two times and pee peed in the potty twice. :) I still think he is off to a great start.
I'm so glad that today starts the weekend with Bobby. We both get a few days break from work to spend with each other. I'm really looking forward to that. I can catch up on cleaning and finishing getting Charlotte's room ready. I have a feeling that she might come soon...but then again I'm not sure.
31 days and counting!
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Baby Alarm Clock?
I had to go to the doctor yesterday...last minute...because Charlotte was being stubborn and she had not moved for a day and a half. At first, I thought it was because I had a long day the day before, but when I laid down all afternoon yesterday and nothing was happening I got freaked out. Her heart rate was good, but she was definitely a sleeping baby. They used this "baby alarm clock" (i know there was an exact name for the device) to wake her up. It was pretty cool. It sent a vibration through the amniotic fluid which, in turn, wakes the baby up if everything is okay. Thankfully, it woke her up and now she is moving around lots and lots...I did my kick counts this morning right after Bobby left for work and she moved like 1000 times in 10 minutes. :)
After the doctors appointment, I met Bobby in TR to see his mom and step dad. I'm really glad that we got to spend time with them. His mom and I went to TJ Max together, and she got me an outfit to wear in the hospital, a sports bra, and a coming home pair of pants. Then we got Zaxby's to go and ate dinner at their house. AFter hanging out for a few hours and Riley showing out a time or two, we came home. Let me just say that driving in the pouring rain was soooooooo much fun....hah...I tried on my outfits when I got home and they look SO good on me!! I'm super excited. I love going to his mom's house, even though it's not that often because we live so far apart. She definitely is a great person to talk about anything, which helps because sometimes I have a hard time finding someone to talk to about what's on my mind. She really is great to me and Riley, and it melts my heart that she is super excited about this baby!
Needless to say...this morning was a rough start because I am so so so exhausted. Riley is eating his Fruit Loops with marshmallows and being a silly butt. I have his birthday party set for the 19th and his Nanna is going to work it and be the gymnastics teacher to help with expenses. I can't believe my little boy will be 2 years old! Time has gone by so fast.
Friday I get my strep test done at the doctor and they will check to see if the baby's head is in the down position yet. I woke up this morning and had the worst pinching feeling for like 5 minutes in my pelvic area...so maybe that means something. I'm about miserable now and am anxious for her arrival...and scared at the same time. But I'm ready for her to get here and I'm ready for a "break" from working. I love my job and love love love my kids at work, but with my body hurting all of the time now, it's hard to stay on my feet all 30 minutes of each rotation, so the break will be nice.
After the doctors appointment, I met Bobby in TR to see his mom and step dad. I'm really glad that we got to spend time with them. His mom and I went to TJ Max together, and she got me an outfit to wear in the hospital, a sports bra, and a coming home pair of pants. Then we got Zaxby's to go and ate dinner at their house. AFter hanging out for a few hours and Riley showing out a time or two, we came home. Let me just say that driving in the pouring rain was soooooooo much fun....hah...I tried on my outfits when I got home and they look SO good on me!! I'm super excited. I love going to his mom's house, even though it's not that often because we live so far apart. She definitely is a great person to talk about anything, which helps because sometimes I have a hard time finding someone to talk to about what's on my mind. She really is great to me and Riley, and it melts my heart that she is super excited about this baby!
Needless to say...this morning was a rough start because I am so so so exhausted. Riley is eating his Fruit Loops with marshmallows and being a silly butt. I have his birthday party set for the 19th and his Nanna is going to work it and be the gymnastics teacher to help with expenses. I can't believe my little boy will be 2 years old! Time has gone by so fast.
Friday I get my strep test done at the doctor and they will check to see if the baby's head is in the down position yet. I woke up this morning and had the worst pinching feeling for like 5 minutes in my pelvic area...so maybe that means something. I'm about miserable now and am anxious for her arrival...and scared at the same time. But I'm ready for her to get here and I'm ready for a "break" from working. I love my job and love love love my kids at work, but with my body hurting all of the time now, it's hard to stay on my feet all 30 minutes of each rotation, so the break will be nice.
Monday, January 31, 2011
It's Monday; back to reality
This weekend has made me realize how blessed I am. My baby shower was Saturday and I had the most amazing time! I was definitely spoiled rotten by all of my friends and family. I am currently uploading the pictures from my special time.
The games we played were great!
1.) who can drink out of the baby bottle the fastest (HILARIOUS)
2.) pin the baby on the stork (I WON) :)
3.) how man m&ms in the baby bottle
4.) how big is mommy's belly
5.) baby trivia
Everything went really great. Katelyn went into labor at my baby shower and ended up having Tanner yesterday at 8*30 and he was 7 lb 4 oz and 20.5 inches. I'm so impatient now. I want Charlea to be here now now now! I'm getting nervous, though and I know it will be here before I know it...only 4 weeks and 5 more days until my due date...so really anytime now...
On my way home from the baby shower we went to Bobby's dad's house and Riley played with Gabby...they ended up kissing each other and I was shocked at what a little lady's man Riley is. He is definitely silly!!
Well enough said...I need to post my pictures on facebook!
The games we played were great!
1.) who can drink out of the baby bottle the fastest (HILARIOUS)
2.) pin the baby on the stork (I WON) :)
3.) how man m&ms in the baby bottle
4.) how big is mommy's belly
5.) baby trivia
Everything went really great. Katelyn went into labor at my baby shower and ended up having Tanner yesterday at 8*30 and he was 7 lb 4 oz and 20.5 inches. I'm so impatient now. I want Charlea to be here now now now! I'm getting nervous, though and I know it will be here before I know it...only 4 weeks and 5 more days until my due date...so really anytime now...
On my way home from the baby shower we went to Bobby's dad's house and Riley played with Gabby...they ended up kissing each other and I was shocked at what a little lady's man Riley is. He is definitely silly!!
Well enough said...I need to post my pictures on facebook!
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Breakfast For Two
So I guess I'm learning to enjoy the fact that Riley has to eat my breakfast and I can only have a miniscule portion of my own food. I guess I need to start eating the toddler food so maybe he will be more interested in that? Who knows... but him taking my food is DEFINITELY cramping my pregnancy lifestyle :).
I have to be honest that I never in my life thought I would write a blog about anything. I used to think it was silly...then I tried it, and it's actually calming! I am also pretty shocked that I am writing a lot, too...well, when Riley allows me to type.
Today is my baby shower for my little Charlotte (Charlea). A family friend is hosting it at her beautiful home and I am SO thankful. I really just did not want to have it at work again, honestly. Having it in a non-stressful atmosphere where the chairs are not metal folding chairs is going to be great! I'm really just excited to spend time with some great people that I have not been able to see in awhile and those that I work with. It really is great getting away from the work scene to hang out.
I'm super stoked about one of the baby shower games. I only had to wash 15 billion bottle pieces for it. Everyone has to get a bottle with some punch in it (i think) and we will see who drinks their entire bottle the fastest! :) This should be interesting and hilarious!!
I am having cars thrown at me...really?!?! Oh how frustrating it is for me to have to spank him and take his cars away. I have a huge stock pile of cars that I take away each day. Right now, my strategy is that every time he throws a car he a) gets a spanking
b) gets the car taken away for the entire day.
So far...it is pretty horrible (in his mind) that his cars are "gone."
I really wish I knew where this hitting phase came from...turd!
Time to get Riley, Bobby, and I ready for the day and go have fun at my shower! :)
I have to be honest that I never in my life thought I would write a blog about anything. I used to think it was silly...then I tried it, and it's actually calming! I am also pretty shocked that I am writing a lot, too...well, when Riley allows me to type.
Today is my baby shower for my little Charlotte (Charlea). A family friend is hosting it at her beautiful home and I am SO thankful. I really just did not want to have it at work again, honestly. Having it in a non-stressful atmosphere where the chairs are not metal folding chairs is going to be great! I'm really just excited to spend time with some great people that I have not been able to see in awhile and those that I work with. It really is great getting away from the work scene to hang out.
I'm super stoked about one of the baby shower games. I only had to wash 15 billion bottle pieces for it. Everyone has to get a bottle with some punch in it (i think) and we will see who drinks their entire bottle the fastest! :) This should be interesting and hilarious!!
I am having cars thrown at me...really?!?! Oh how frustrating it is for me to have to spank him and take his cars away. I have a huge stock pile of cars that I take away each day. Right now, my strategy is that every time he throws a car he a) gets a spanking
b) gets the car taken away for the entire day.
So far...it is pretty horrible (in his mind) that his cars are "gone."
I really wish I knew where this hitting phase came from...turd!
Time to get Riley, Bobby, and I ready for the day and go have fun at my shower! :)
Friday, January 28, 2011
New Additions
I finally feel that I am having a family of my own. I see other couples with children and have always wondered when my "happy ending" would come, and in time it did come to me. A lot of it was me being naive when it came to people, and just jumping into anything that crossed my path. I can thank that to my ex-husband who had caused me to think that relationships were mostly bad with a side of okay. After kicking him out, and still having this mind set, it took a few disastrous relationships to realize that I would rather be alone then live in unhappiness for the rest of my life.
Then there was Bobby. We went to high school together, but I must admit that we did not really give each other the time of day in high school, in large part due to we grew up two totally different ways. But in seeing the differences of how we grew up, we really are not that much different from each other. We both have values, morals, and know what we want in life. He really has changed my life and view of relationships in the past 4ish months that we have been together. He is one of the strongest men I have EVER met. I have a two year old son and a little girl on the way, both who he cherishes and does not treat them like they are not his. He has stepped up in a role that my children's fathers' have never even tried. It melts my heart that he takes them in as his own and does not look at them any differently. And it melts my heart that my little boy adores him back.
I have about 5 weeks until my daughter will be here (give or take). I'm very anxious for her arrival and wish it was closer to her due date because at this point this pregnancy has been very hard on me. When I was pregnant with Riley, the only issues I had were due to an ex-husband, but this time around it has been more physical problems. I still have issues with the fact that people judge me for not being with either father of my children, but I was at a point in my life that I had to take a step back and realize that if I stayed in the relationship, I would never get anywhere in life and would always struggle. I'm honestly tired of struggling in everything in life, and since Bobby has stepped up to the "challenge" of this family lifestyle I have, even though we still have our struggles, it is NOTHING like it was for me. With the unconditional love that he gives to me, not to mention taking care of my every need, he really has shown me what a real relationship is supposed to be. He has also told me how people are always going to talk, but you can't let what they think terrorize you. He is still very understanding when I get upset because of what people say...he is trying to cure my tender heart. :) If it was not for him, honestly, I would still be the "lost" girl that I was 4ish months ago. I'm so happy to have him and can't wait to see what our future will entail.
Nap time is over...a sad little boy needs me!
Then there was Bobby. We went to high school together, but I must admit that we did not really give each other the time of day in high school, in large part due to we grew up two totally different ways. But in seeing the differences of how we grew up, we really are not that much different from each other. We both have values, morals, and know what we want in life. He really has changed my life and view of relationships in the past 4ish months that we have been together. He is one of the strongest men I have EVER met. I have a two year old son and a little girl on the way, both who he cherishes and does not treat them like they are not his. He has stepped up in a role that my children's fathers' have never even tried. It melts my heart that he takes them in as his own and does not look at them any differently. And it melts my heart that my little boy adores him back.
I have about 5 weeks until my daughter will be here (give or take). I'm very anxious for her arrival and wish it was closer to her due date because at this point this pregnancy has been very hard on me. When I was pregnant with Riley, the only issues I had were due to an ex-husband, but this time around it has been more physical problems. I still have issues with the fact that people judge me for not being with either father of my children, but I was at a point in my life that I had to take a step back and realize that if I stayed in the relationship, I would never get anywhere in life and would always struggle. I'm honestly tired of struggling in everything in life, and since Bobby has stepped up to the "challenge" of this family lifestyle I have, even though we still have our struggles, it is NOTHING like it was for me. With the unconditional love that he gives to me, not to mention taking care of my every need, he really has shown me what a real relationship is supposed to be. He has also told me how people are always going to talk, but you can't let what they think terrorize you. He is still very understanding when I get upset because of what people say...he is trying to cure my tender heart. :) If it was not for him, honestly, I would still be the "lost" girl that I was 4ish months ago. I'm so happy to have him and can't wait to see what our future will entail.
Nap time is over...a sad little boy needs me!
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