Sick and Exhausted...Literally

My day off...and I think it's going to be just one of those days.  I'm dressed and waiting for the phone call from my mom to meet her and Riley for lunch.  They had their every Tuesday morning play date at gymnastics.  He is probably going to be in a bad mood and probably was in time out more than once because he woke up at 6 this morning and would not go back to sleep...so I'm exhausted as well.  I got to sleep around 2 this morning and woke up at 2*30 sick as a dog.  They do say that morning sickness can come and go throughout the entire pregnancy...gag...

So after being sick and shivering for an hour straight I got to sleep around 4 and had to wake up at 5*40 to get Bobby's lunch ready and get him up and ready.  My poor boyfriend has been sick the past two days, as well.  I feel awful that I can't take care of him and myself.  It is just so hard to move and do anything right now.

I had the worst bloody nose of my life yesterday.  It was actually my first bloody nose ever.  I was shaking because there was so much blood and I could not get it to stop.  I swear I brushed my teeth 5 times to get the nasty taste of copper out of my mouth.  Oh well...if that was the most exciting part of my morning then I'm doing okay.  No contractions yet, and 26 more days to go...I think this baby has decided to hang in there all the way just like Riley did.  I'm so miserable and am wishing her to come as soon as possible.

I want her to be healthy, of course, so I'm impatiently being patient, but I can't finalize my divorce until she is here (so says some law dated back to the late 1700s)...it's retarded if you ask me, but that's the law.  Huff...I can't wait for that portion of my life to be over.  It just seems like until it is over I can't get the bad memories of how I was treated out of this chapter of my life.  It is not fair to me nor Bobby that sometimes I get too sensitive because of the past.  I know that once the divorce is final, it will help me.

I'm pretty tired of my fingers feeling like sausages...i have skinny fingers and having my fingers hurt when I bend them is annoying...I guess at this point I am only bitching about the aches and pains...but soon enough a princess will enter mine and bobby's life and I CAN'T WAIT.  We have 98% of what we need for her, and if you ask me, that's not too bad considering I did not have half of what I do this time when I had Riley.  I'm very thankful for what I have and who I have in my life.

All I know is I love my little growing family more than I could ever imagine loving anything else...Bobby, Riley, and Charlea are the greatest!