New Additions

I finally feel that I am having a family of my own.  I see other couples with children and have always wondered when my "happy ending" would come, and in time it did come to me.  A lot of it was me being naive when it came to people, and just jumping into anything that crossed my path.  I can thank that to my ex-husband who had caused me to think that relationships were mostly bad with a side of okay.  After kicking him out, and still having this mind set, it took a few disastrous relationships to realize that I would rather be alone then live in unhappiness for the rest of my life.

Then there was Bobby.  We went to high school together, but I must admit that we did not really give each other the time of day in high school, in large part due to we grew up two totally different ways.  But in seeing the differences of how we grew up, we really are not that much different from each other.  We both have values, morals, and know what we want in life.  He really has changed my life and view of relationships in the past 4ish months that we have been together.  He is one of the strongest men I have EVER met.  I have a two year old son and a little girl on the way, both who he cherishes and does not treat them like they are not his.  He has stepped up in a role that my children's fathers' have never even tried.  It melts my heart that he takes them in as his own and does not look at them any differently.  And it melts my heart that my little boy adores him back.

I have about 5 weeks until my daughter will be here (give or take).  I'm very anxious for her arrival and wish it was closer to her due date because at this point this pregnancy has been very hard on me.  When I was pregnant with Riley, the only issues I had were due to an ex-husband, but this time around it has been more physical problems.  I still have issues with the fact that people judge me for not being with either father of my children, but I was at a point in my life that I had to take a step back and realize that if I stayed in the relationship, I would never get anywhere in life and would always struggle.  I'm honestly tired of struggling in everything in life, and since Bobby has stepped up to the "challenge" of this family lifestyle I have, even though we still have our struggles, it is NOTHING like it was for me.  With the unconditional love that he gives to me, not to mention taking care of my every need, he really has shown me what a real relationship is supposed to be.  He has also told me how people are always going to talk, but you can't let what they think terrorize you.  He is still very understanding when I get upset because of what people say...he is trying to cure my tender heart. :)  If it was not for him, honestly, I would still be the "lost" girl that I was 4ish months ago.  I'm so happy to have him and can't wait to see what our future will entail.

Nap time is over...a sad little boy needs me!